Filtering

My friend Tracy used to say this every time she saw me: “Camellia is sillier than a coffee filter. You are sillier than a coffee filter…” Yeah right, I just laughed, unconsciously, what was that supposed to mean anyway? Honestly speaking, I cannot find a word to explain my feelings at this stage. It’s kind of full and empty at the same time. I guess this is the result after having tried to filter my brain with too many different sources of information: positive, negative, scientific or whatever in between. I had started to follow/subscribe a number of companies, groups, influencers or whatsoever that I thought I could learn something out of it… Then I got tired because I realized too much of anything could never produce any good. It’s like how you can either soon enough get tired of someone who is full of ‘negative’ energy or get fed up with some sort of positivist/ scientist who really knows how to tell you what you SHOULD do… You don’t always need that many advices…

So yes, now I agree with Tracy that I am sillier than a coffee filter because a coffee filter will obviously do a better job to drag out all the coffee waste and residue. Meanwhile, my brain is full of messy thoughts. The way I see it: Yes I am happy that I have a number of things to look forward to. And at the same time, I also agree that you don’t always need a plan. Sometimes you just need to breathe, trust, let go, and see what happens.